Lasting effects

Today we had a difficult day.
WE had to take Lele in to see a physical therapist for her foot.
Due to some neglect, and subsequent surgeries, so has allot of scarring, limited mobility, and walks only on her toes with that foot.
I can only imagine what is going on in her mind when she sees these doctors, and they try to come near her. Although this therapy place "looked" very fun with lots of toys around , no one "looked " like a doctor, she wanted NOTHING to do with it.
She began to whimper and latched onto my neck for dear life as we waited in the waiting room.
Then as we got out into the therapy center and MS Beth tried to talk to her she began to scream and kick and thrash around. We let her just cry it out and roll on the floor as we tried to show her some toys and calm her down, but it was not working. So that they could even see her foot, I had to literally wrestle with her to get her sock and shoe off . I again tried to just hold her and rock her as she just sobbed. IT was just heart wrenching to see her in such distress.
Even though what we were doing was trying to help her. This went on for over 20 minutes before she finally began to calm down. MS Beth patiently talked to her and tried to get her to relax. As she touched her foot to assess the situation, she again became very agitated.

It's hard to imagine such trauma in a young child's life and the lasting effects of those memories.
An hour later we had made it through, and She got her fruit snack for being so brave.
Now I just have to prepare myself to go through it again as we have to go back next week to be fitted for a brace for her foot. I am sure she will be thrilled.
I just pray Heavenly Father will help to ease the distress for her, and help to heal her tiny heart of all the abuse and neglect.